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January 1, 1914
To Thee, supreme Dispenser of all boons, to Thee who givest
life its justification, by making it pure, beautiful and good, to Thee, Master
of our destinies and goal of all our aspirations, was consecrated the first
minute of this new year.
May it be completely glorified by this consecration; may those who hope
for Thee, seek Thee in the right path; may those who seek Thee find Thee, and
those who suffer, not knowing where the remedy lies, feel Thy life gradually
piercing the hard crust of their obscure consciousness.
I bow down in deep devotion and in boundless gratitude before Thy
beneficent splendour; in the name of the earth I give Thee thanks for
manifesting Thyself; in its name I implore Thee to manifest Thyself ever more
fully, in an uninterrupted growth of Light and Love.
Be the sovereign Master of our thoughts, our feelings, our actions.
Thou art our reality, the only Reality.
Without Thee all is falsehood and illusion, all is dismal obscurity.
In Thee are life and light and joy.
In Thee is supreme Peace.
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January 2, 1914
This marvellous silence manifests Thee despite the mad human agitation –
the immutable and constant silence so living in all things that one has but to
listen to hear it, in contrast with all that is futile noise, vain agitation,
useless dispersion of energies. Let it flower in our being as a source of light
and peace; may its power radiate over all in beneficent streams.
Thou art the savour of all life and the reason for all activity, the
goal of our thoughts.
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January 3, 1914
It is always good to look within oneself from time to time and see that
one is nothing and can do nothing, but afterwards one must turn one's eyes to
Thee, knowing that Thou art all and Thou canst do all.
Thou art the life of our life
and the light of our being,
Thou art the master of our destinies.
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January 4, 1914
The tide of materialistic thoughts is always on the watch, waiting for
the least weakness, and if we relax but one moment from our vigilance, if we are
even slightly negligent, it rushes in and invades us from all sides, submerging
under its heavy flood the result sometimes of numberless efforts. Then the
being enters a sort of torpor, its physical needs of food and sleep increase,
its intelligence is clouded, its inner vision veiled, and in spite of the
little interest it really finds in such superficial activities, they occupy it
almost exclusively. This state is extremely painful and tiring, for nothing is
more tiring than materialistic thoughts, and the mind, worn out, suffers like a
caged bird which cannot spread its wings and yet longs to be able to soar
freely.
But perhaps this state has its own use which I do not see.... In any
case, I do not struggle; and like a child in its mother's arms, like a fervent
disciple at the feet of his master, I trust myself to Thee and surrender to Thy
guidance, sure of Thy victory.
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January 5, 1914
For a long while I have been sitting with this note-book before me,
unable to make up my mind to write, so much is all within me mediocre,
worthless, insipid, hopelessly commonplace. Not a single thought in my head,
not a single feeling in my heart, a complete indifference to everything and an
insurmountable dullness.
How can such a state be of any use?
I am a veritable zero in the world.
But all this is not at all important. And provided Thy work is
accomplished, Thy manifestation takes place and the earth becomes more and more
Thy harmonious and fruitful kingdom, it matters little whether I accomplish
this Work or not.
And as it is certain that It will be done, I should have no reason to
worry even if I felt like it. From the depths to the outermost surface, all
this, my being, is only a handful of dust; it is but natural that it should be
scattered on the winds and leave no trace behind....
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January 6, 1914
Thou art the one and only goal of my life and the centre of my
aspiration, the pivot of my thought, the key of the synthesis of my being. And as
Thou art beyond all sensation, all feeling and all thought, Thou art the living
but ineffable experience, the Reality lived in the depths of the being but
untranslatable in our poor words; and it is because human intelligence is
powerless to reduce Thee to a formula that some, a little disdainfully, label
“sentiment” the knowledge that it is possible to have of Thee, but it is surely
as far from sentiment as it is from thought. So long as one has not attained
this supreme Knowledge, one has no solid basis or lasting centre for one's
mental and emotional synthesis, and all other intellectual constructions can
only be arbitrary, artificial and vain.
Thou art eternal silence and perfect peace in what we are able to
perceive of Thee.
Thou art all the perfection we must acquire, all the marvels to be
realised, all the splendour to be manifested.
And all our words are but children's babblings when we venture to speak
of Thee.
In silence is the greatest reverence.
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January 7, 1914
Give them all, O Lord, Thy peace and light, open their blinded eyes and
their darkened understanding; calm their futile worries and their vain
anxieties. Turn their gaze away from themselves and give them the joy of being
consecrated to Thy work without calculation or mental reservation. Let Thy
beauty flower in all things, awaken Thy love in all hearts, so that Thy
eternally progressive order may be realised upon earth and Thy harmony be
spread until the day all becomes Thyself in perfect purity and peace.
Oh! let all tears be wiped away, all suffering relieved, all anguish
dispelled, and let calm serenity dwell in every heart and powerful certitude
strengthen every mind. Let Thy life flow through all like a regenerating stream
that all may turn to Thee and draw from that contemplation the energy for all
victories.
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January 8, 1914
Let us shun the paths that are too easy and ask no effort, the paths
which give us the illusion of having reached our goal; let us shun that negligence
which opens the door to every downfall, that complacent self-admiration which
leads to every abyss. Let us understand that however great may have been our
efforts, our struggles, even our victories, compared with the distance yet to
be travelled, the one we have already covered is nothing; and that all are
equal – infinitesimal grains of dust or identical stars – before Eternity.
But Thou art the conqueror of all obstacles, the Light that illumines
all ignorance, the Love that vanquishes all pride. And no error can persist in
front of Thee.
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January 9, 1914
Lord, incomprehensible reality, Thou who ever fleest
before our conquest, effective though it may be, Thou who shalt always be the
Unknown despite all that we shall learn to know of Thee, despite all that we
shall ravish from Thy eternal mystery, we would go forward, making a complete
and constant effort, combining all the multiple paths leading to Thee, go
forward like a rising, indomitable tide, breaking down all obstacles, crossing
every barrier, lifting up every veil, scattering all clouds, piercing through
all darkness, go forward towards Thee, ever to Thee, in a movement so powerful,
so irresistible that a whole multitude may be drawn in our wake, and the earth,
conscious of Thy new and eternal Presence, understand at last its true purpose,
and live in the harmony and peace of Thy sovereign realisation.
Teach us always more,
Give us more light,
Dispel our ignorance,
Illumine our minds,
Transfigure our hearts,
And give us the Love that never runs dry, and makes Thy sweet law flower
in every being.
We are Thine for all Eternity.
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January
10, 1914
My aspiration rises towards Thee ever the same in its almost childlike
form, so ordinary in its simplicity, but my call is ever more ardent, and
behind the faltering words there is all the fervour of my concentrated will.
And I implore Thee, O Lord, in spite of the naïveté of this expression that is hardly
intellectual, I implore Thee for more true light, true purity, sincerity and
love, and all this for all, for the multitude constituting what I call my
being, and for the multitude constituting the universal being; I implore Thee,
though I know that it is perfectly useless to implore Thee, for we alone, in
our ignorance and ill-will, can stand in the way of Thy glorious and total
manifestation, but something childlike within me finds a support in this mental
attitude; I implore Thee that the peace of Thy reign may spread throughout the
earth.
O inaccessible summit which we unceasingly scale without ever reaching
Thee, sole Reality of our being whom we believe we have found only to see Thee
immediately escape us, marvellous state which we think we have seized but which
leads us farther and farther into ever unexplored depths and immensities; no
one can say, “I have known Thee,” and yet all carry Thee in themselves, and in
the silence of their soul can hear
the echo of Thy voice; but this silence is
itself progressive, and whatever be the perfection of the union we have
realised, as long as we belong by our body to the
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world of relativity, this Union with
Thee can always grow more perfect.
But all these words we use to speak about Thee
are only idle talk. Grant that I may become Thy faithful servitor.
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January 11, 1914
Every moment all the unforeseen, the unexpected, the unknown is before
us, every moment the universe is created anew in its entirety and in every one
of its parts. And if we had a truly living faith, if we had the absolute
certitude of Thy omnipotence and Thy sole reality, Thy manifestation could at
each moment become so evident that the whole universe would be transformed by
it. But we are so enslaved to everything that is around us and has gone before
us, we are so influenced by the whole totality of manifested things, and our
faith is so weak that we are yet unable to serve as intermediaries for the great
miracle of transfiguration.... But, Lord, I know that it will come one day. I
know that a day will come when Thou wilt transform all those who come to us;
Thou wilt transform them so radically that, liberated completely from the bonds
of the past, they will begin to live in Thee an entirely new life, a life made
solely of Thee, with Thee as its sovereign Lord. And in this way all anxieties
will be transformed into serenity, all anguish into peace, all doubts into
certainties, all ugliness into harmony, all egoism into self-giving, all
darkness into light and all suffering into immutable happiness.
But art Thou not already performing this beautiful miracle? I see it
flowering everywhere around us!
O divine law of beauty and love, supreme liberator, there is no obstacle
to Thy power.
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Only our own blindness deprives us of the
comforting sight of Thy constant victory.
My heart sings a hymn of gladness and my thought is illumined with joy.
Thy
transcendent and marvellous love is the sovereign Master of the world.
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January 12, 1914
A Teaching can be profitable only if it is perfectly sincere, that is,
if it is lived while it is being given, and words often repeated, thoughts
expressed frequently can no longer be sincere....
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January 13, 1914
Thou hast passed, O Lord, like a great wave of love over my life, and
when I was immersed in it I knew integrally and intensely that I had offered to
Thee – when? I do not know, at no precise moment and most probably always – my
thought, my heart, my body in a living holocaust.
And in that great love which enveloped me and that consciousness of
perfect renunciation there was an immense serenity vaster than the universe and
a sweetness so intense and so full of infinite compassion that tears began to
flow slowly from my eyes. Nothing could have been more remote from both
suffering and happiness, it was unutterable peace.
O sublime Love, centre of our life, Marvel of marvels, at last I find
Thee again and live anew in Thee, but how much more powerfully, how much more
consciously than before! How much better I know Thee, understand Thee! Each
time I find Thee anew, my communion with Thee grows more integral, more
complete, more definitive.
O Presence of ineffable beauty, thought of supreme redemption, sovereign
power of salvation, with what joy all my being feels Thee living within it,
sole principle of its life and of all life, wonderful builder of all thought,
all will, all consciousness. On this world of illusion, this sombre
nightmare, Thou hast bestowed Thy divine
reality, and each atom of matter contains something of Thy Absolute.
Thou art, Thou livest, Thou radiatest, Thou reignest.
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January 19, 1914
O Lord, divine Master of Love, Thou art the eternal victor, and those
who become perfectly attuned to Thee, those who live for Thee alone and by Thee
alone, cannot but win all victories; for in Thee is the supreme force, the
force of complete disinterestedness, of perfect clear-sightedness, sovereign
kindness.
In Thee, by Thee, all is transfigured and glorified; in Thee is found
the key to all mysteries and all powers. But one can attain Thee only if one no
longer desires anything except to live in Thee, serve Thee, make Thy divine
work triumph more swiftly for the salvation of a greater number of men.
O Lord, Thou alone art real and all else is an illusion; for when one
lives in Thee one sees and understands all things, nothing escapes Thy perfect
knowledge, but everything wears another appearance; for all is Thou in essence,
all being the fruit of Thy work, of Thy magnanimous intervention; and in the
most sinister darkness Thou couldst kindle a star.
May our devotion grow ever deeper.
May our consecration grow ever more perfect.
And mayst Thou, already the real sovereign of
life, become in effect its true sovereign.
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January 24, 1914
O Thou who art the sole reality of our being, O sublime Master of love,
Redeemer of life, let me have no longer any other consciousness than of Thee at
every instant and in each being. When I do not live solely with Thy life, I agonise,
I sink slowly towards extinction; for Thou art my only reason for existence, my
one goal, my single support. I am like a timid bird not yet sure of its wings
and hesitating to take its flight; let me soar to reach definitive identity
with Thee.
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January 29, 1914
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It is Thy Presence in every being, O divine Master of love, that makes
it possible for every man, even the most cruel, to be open to pity and even the
most vile to respect, almost despite himself, honour and justice. It is Thou
who, beyond all conventions and prejudices, illuminest
with a special light, divine and pure, all that we are and all that we do, and makest us see clearly the difference between what we
actually are and what we could be.
Thou art the impassable barrier set up against the excess of evil,
darkness and ill-will; Thou art the living hope in every heart of all possible
and future perfections.
To Thee all the fervour of my adoration.
Thou art the gateway within reach of our conception leading to
unsuspected and inconceivable splendours, splendours which will be revealed to
us progressively.
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January 30, 1914
All that is conscious within me belongs unreservedly to Thee, and gradually
I shall strive always harder to conquer the subconscient, the yet dark bedrock.
O divine Master of love, eternal Teacher, Thou guidest
our lives. It is in Thee alone and for Thee alone that we want to live;
enlighten our consciousness, guide our steps, and grant that we may do the
utmost we can, using all our energies solely to serve Thee.
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January 31, 1914
Every morning may our thought rise fervently towards Thee, asking Thee
how we can manifest and serve Thee best. At every moment in the manifold
choices which we can make and which, despite their apparent insignificance, are
always of great importance – since according to our decision we become subject
to one category of determinisms or another – at every moment may our attitude
be such that Thy divine Will may determine our choice and that thus it may be
Thou who directest our entire life. According to the
consciousness in which we are when taking a decision, we become subject to the
determinism of the order of realities in which we are conscious; whence the
consequences, often unforeseen and troublesome, that are contradictory to the
general orientation of one's life and form obstacles which are sometimes
terrible to overcome later. Therefore, O Lord, Divine Master of love, we want
to be conscious of Thee and Thee alone, be identified with Thy supreme law each
time we take a decision, each time we choose, so that it may be Thy Will which
moves us, and that our life be thus effectively and integrally consecrated to
Thee.
In Thy Light we shall see, in Thy Knowledge
we shall know, in Thy Will we shall realise.
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